When we were in PNG we lived our lives fully in that country. There would be times, of course that our minds would be more occupied with stateside matters than others- when hearing of a sickness or death or a struggle of some kind of a loved one. But we were fully invested into our work there. Being back state side for the last 6 months has been a surreal experience.Trying to assimilate back into our home culture and navigate all that it entails has been a challenge.
Isaiah 40:31
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Then you add the multiple decisions of uncertainty of what is our next step as a family. Trying to remind ourselves over and over again each day that God knows our future and knows what He has planned for us. The human-part wants to make plans, start dealing with the million and one things that need to be done in whatever path God wants us to go on.
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Feeling as though we are on a need to know basis daily, moment by moment, can be daunting to say the least especially when it is happening to a person that likes to plan and organize (yes, I can be a control freak).
Psalms 46:10a
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;"
God keeps reminding me over and over again "Wait on God";"Be still and know I am God". The back and forth of weighing each and every pro and con and what we think is best for our family. This is an exhausting place to be and it can paralyze in other aspects of my life. And when we think we have made a decision and then something happens to second, third guess our decision so then we are back to square one. Seeking Godly wisdom from others has been important but it still comes down to what does God want for this family at this time.
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
We try to live each day fully vested in God and doing the next "right" step. With a lot of these decisions and variables, and feelings of "we don't fit into the perimeters of this so called box", and to make it even more confusing these different circumstances may or may not affect the people that have gone before us. Other people will be affected by what ever decision that is made. So the feeling or thought of a fish out of water comes to mind. The over-riding theme that I think God is pounding into my head with a cement 2x4 is WAIT and BE STILL. I want to know NOW *stomps foot!* This has been where our thoughts and prayers have been in the last several months... Please pray for us as we make decisions and that we would be where God wants us to be. That we would know without a shadow of a doubt we making the right choice.
1 Peter 1:6-7 NLT Italics my words
So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead,even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested fire test and purifies gold-through your faith(is more important than the task ahead) is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials,(you are always looking towards Papa God for the next step) it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world."
God is good all the time even when we don't know what the next day will bring.
Ruth
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